curve balls

it's been quite some time since i have blogged.  there is good reason.  on jan. 3rd, my brother was in a terrible accident.  it is a miracle that he is still with us.  it has been a very long 11 days since the accident in and out of the hosptital with him, doctor appointments and surgery on his very broken leg this week.  he is on his way to getting better.  i just thank God every day that we still have my brother with us.  he doesn't remember the wreck and after seeing the pictures, that is a great thing.  i hope he never remembers :(

on top of this, i've run out of my asthma medicine.  without it, my breathing can get out of control pretty easily when i work out.  i've decided to use the exersize bike daily for 20-30 minutes until i can work up some stamina to work out to DVD's.   but not today.  i'm sicker then a dog.  seems a cold is making it's way through our house.  i imagine it's from being at the hospital so much lately.  The kids have both had it all week, even the hubby who never ever gets sick (ok maybe once every 2 years) has it.  i wanted to think i was going to escape getting sick but no such luck.  i woke up to the dog barking and scratching at the back door at 3am and when i went to tell her to zip it, i had no voice.  i do have some of a voice now but i have to be at work by 10am so i don't see working out in my schedule today.  but tomorrow - i begin.  even sick i should be able to ride a bike for 20 mins.

i do have to say i'm having a hard time not being discouraged.  i am not seeing any change on the scale at all.  i've been eating better and less amounts but still no change.  could the stress be making me hold on to the weight?  i've also noticed in the last 5 months or so, my weight has shifted and now i'm carrying more all up front in my belly.  i'm really hoping that by adding the bike workout daily, i will start to see some change. 

and now to drag my butt around to get J ready for school. 

happy friday everyone