About Me

small town, southern idaho, United States
i am on a mission. a mission to find myself. i'm extremely over weight and have recently been diagnosed as bi polar with severe anxiety disorder. getting my life together at this point is a challange but one i know i can over come. i have a wonderful husband and two amazing children. this is a blog dedicated to my ups and downs on this road to rediscovering who i am and who i can be.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

frusteration

i am making zero progress and this is really bumming me out.  i am not getting good sleep or even decent sleep because M is still up 3 or 4 times most nights.  i swear as soon as we can afford a new baby moniter, she is going to her own room.  i am hoping that will help.  meanwhile, i don't have the energy to workout most days.  and on the days i've tried to, she takes a 10 minute nap all day.  as soon as i get started, she wakes up.  i think i will start working out after i get J home from school so he can help keep her entertained while i get at least 20 minutes in. 

i'm trying so hard not to worry or stress about so much right now.  worry and stress will not fix the multitude of problems and issues i am dealing with right now.  i just have to figure out some way to work the issues out.  i think al the stress is keeping me from losing any weight.

this post is quite random.  i'm trying to keep a train of thought while having to stop every 10 seconds to grab M from whatever she is getting into.  ahh, the joys of a mobile baby :P

1 comment:

  1. HUGS take care of yourself. You will get there. I know you will.

    ReplyDelete