stress sucks

i must vent.  this will not be a cheery post.  i'm on the verge of tears and i have to vent.

the only thing harder than dealing with stress is trying to pretend everything is ok in front of your kids.  i have $3 to my name until friday.  i got a notice in the mail yesterday that a collection agency has obtained a judgement to garnish R's check for medical bills along with all the other late bills.  my student loan check was $100 less then it should have been for some unknown reason (and it still isn't here - was supposed to be on the 26th).  and my power bill is $100 more then i thought it would be.  i'm stressed beyond belief.  i'm counting the days until the 1st so at least i will have money to get groceries.  and through all of this - i have to keep the brave face so i don't pass the stress to the kids. 

i know in the end, this will all work out somehow.  i'm just so upset because if they garnish R's check, there goes christmas for my kids.  i can say i truly effing hate money.  i hate it.